Back to...First Things First

I know it has been so long since I've written a post. We have been super busy and I just crash when I have extra time. I have been rather "blah" as well, so I tend to hide when I feel that I might bring others down. I am a very real person, so it's impossible for me to interact with others and not let my true feelings show. I don't like being so transparent, but it is who I am. Anyway, the past few months has been difficult ones for me and those I love. Many discouraging things have happened and I am desperate to come out of this a stronger person. Right now I just feel weak. Nothing feels stable or sure. I know in my head that I must rely on God, I know all the verses to quote and all the things I should feel. But, I am still feeling overwhelmed. Finances are unsteady. Relationships are shaky at best. Institutions seem to be quaking. There is no where I can go right now that I feel 100% safe, secure and free to be me. It's just where I am. D asked me the other day "Why are you doing this or that? If you don't enjoy it, don't do it." To which I responded, "Then, the only thing I would be doing right now is being a mom." Is it really time to let all else go? I'm not sure, but I am looking at ways to simplify my life again. When there is too much activity, too many demands, too many stresses, I do not do well. I am created to be in communion with my heavenly Father and in relationship with others, the ones under my own roof before all others. The rest of my activities and choices are choking those two priorities. It's time to make first things first again. Easier said than done!