Rejection and Worthlessness

For as long as I can remember, two companions have walked with me.

Rejection.

Worthlessness.

As a child, I strived to do enough to please others.

As a young women, I wept because nothing I did was ever good enough.

As an adult, you would think that I would have grown up and gone past this place of need, yet these two companions cling to me each day.

”You are not wanted,” one whispers.

”You are not good enough.” the other chimes in.

I am sick and tired of listening to the lies.

Their voices are often echoed by the voices and actions of others.

The voices and actions of those who were meant to love and accept me, but choose to deny and reject me.

I long to get to a place where I am confident in Him and in who He created me to be.

I want to believe that His favor, His blessing, His applause is all that I need.

This morning I begin my day with the truth found in Psalm 16:8, “I have set the Lord always before me; Because He is at my right hand I shall not be moved.”

My only defense to combat the lies is truth.

He is all that I need and I will cling to Him today.

He loves me.

He gets me.

He knows the motives of my heart, the hairs on my head, the tears that fall from my eyes.

He has come to make all things new.

He wants to trade my ashes for His beauty.

He wants to take my biggest weakness and transform it into something that blesses and strengthens others.

Father, I choose to believe You today. I choose to trust You. I choose to take You at Your word. You love me. You delight in me. You are mighty to save me, even at my lowest place. You rejoice over me with singing. I ask You to cover me today and speak life and truth to my broken heart.

Psalm 16:8, Zephaniah 3:17