Unblogged

There is such a fine line between "keeping it real" and "airing the dirty laundry" in life. I have tried to keep my blog upbeat and focus on the good in life, while still eluding to the real things that happen day by day. There are seasons of life that are so painful, and yet so private, and I choose to hide out and avoid a lot of extra contact with the outside world. During an email "conversation" with a dear friend this week, we both opened up about some painful circumstances we are walking through. I told her, "I guess these are the unblogged details of our lives." I plan to keep many things tucked deep inside my heart and will only share them with a few trusted friends. I don't believe that blogs and Facebook are the places to speak ill of another person or to air any dirty laundry, and I want to protect that which is precious to me. At the same time, I want to be clear...life it hard. I am human. I mess up. I fall. My kids are human. They mess up. They fall. My husband is human. He messes up. He falls. Our home is not the place of peace that I so long for it to be. But day by day, moment by moment, I pray and I hope that we are getting closer to the goal. All that I've EVER wanted in life was to be a wife and a mother. That's IT. I know that I wear some other hats, but I would trade any of them in if I knew it would make me a better wife and mom. Period.

Unblogged...so many, many feelings and emotions, disappointments and heartaches will stay unblogged. There may come a time and a place when my heart is healed to a point that I can share some of them, but many will remain in the secret places of my heart. I thank God for the few trusted friends who have stood by me during this time. They know many of my "unblogged pieces." Without their kind words, cards, flowers and phone calls, I would be very alone.

PS--Yes, I know that "unblogged" is not a real word. Yet.